Wednesday, April 18, 2012

but joy comes in the morning...

we have had a rough week so far...not really any more so than usual but i guess i am just a little weary.  weary for not having ways to promise teachers that things will be better.  weary for not being able to control my child's behavior in front of family and friends. weary for not being able to help.  i guess we have had more opportunities for not success.  april and may are jam packed with activities and non-routine celebrations which are not always (ever) calvary's strong suit.  after a particularly trying dinner and visit with family i was feeling defeated.  on top of calvary's behavior we are also in between doctors.  we aren't quite "in" with anyone.  so now not only do i feel defeated but i also feel like i have no where to turn for tangible assistance other than the internet...not always super helpful. 
yet this morning on our super short drive to school that song "blessings" came on the radio.  i wasn't really paying attention until calvary started singing along.  i heard his little voice sing, "what if your blessings come through raindrops, what if your healing comes through tears, what if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know you're near. what if trials of this life are your mercies in disguise."
i can't even express what it meant to me.  i've heard this song many, many times...but never from the lips of my son.  he knew every word and he sang happily and sweetly. 
remembering that God has not left his throne restored my hope and encouraged my heart.  it breaks my heart when i realize how hard some days are for him but this morning he was singing...so thankful for the joy that comes in the morning :)

1 comment:

Traci said...

Ugh, you just brought tears to my eyes. What a blessing it must have been to hear that coming from Calvary's mouth. God does send us beautiful reminders of how good He is doesn't he?!