alarm clocks and parenthood...

i miss sleep. i really, really do. i get the hours but i am lacking on the quality...those good hours of sleep where i do not dream or think or perform any other task of the mind or body. in my list of failures i mentioned that i lose my patience with harper and calvary more often then i would like. most of those moments of lost patience involves early morning hours. calvary slamming doors, outbursts of laughter, the pitter patter or little feet (that's supposed to be cute, right?) all jar me out of an already tentative state of sleep. all i want is some sleep! why don't we just tie bells around their necks and give them bugles to increase the annoyance to a state of prodigious vexatiousness?? if they only knew they could get away with eating all the cookies in the house, pouring honey on the bathroom floors, or even shaving intricate designs in their hair if only they were quiet! sigh. i guess in all actuality God has prepared me for all of the difficulties of motherhood through the insanity of pregnancy. he is really good about doing this sort of creating parallels between two different stages of life or life moments; for instance the sacrificial lamb parallels to christ as the sacrificial lamb---it is all quiet literary and the significance is not lost on me---likewise pregnancy is very preparational for motherhood. God sets the stage. what begins with nausea propagates into stretch marks, weight gain, and (gasp) varicose veins. as if that was not enough to get the point across, this being that has been vegetating pound for pound within my uterus has to come out...dot dot dot. nice one. i get the picture. parenthood is not easy. i imagine that a sweet little parable would not be nearly as effective as multi-pound human squeezing out of an orifice minute in comparison but i like to think God's sense of humor also has something to do with it as well. if i was to think labor and infancy was difficult, i suffered a mind blowing epiphany to learn that 4 has by far been the most difficult stage so far...maybe age 4 correlates to the second trimester/ or maybe third...God definitely knows what he is doing when he makes these babies so precious and cute...