little clothes

well this past week has been a week of adjusting the closests from fall and winter to spring and summer. i went through all of the kids clothes determining what was too small and what could possibly be worn next year and then going through the clothes from last spring and summer and determining what clothes were too small and which clothes would make the cut. after i finished, i went back through all of the clothes that were too small and organized them into piles of keepers and sellers. i was much more emotional about this then i have ever been before. as i folded all of the little clothes it hit me for the first time that i do not have little babies anymore. harper is nearly three years old! calvary is going to be 1 on saturday! i just cannot believe it. i found myself saying, "i'll keep this for our next baby." i must be delusional. next baby is something i swore would never happen and here i am planning for it. wow. this must be that baby bug that people talk about. i don't even want any more babies, i just don't want mine to get any bigger. harper assured me today that even when she is a grown up she will still cuddle with me--we'll see about that. i suppose the best thing that has come out of the changing of the closets is that i realize a little more fully how precious this time is to me. i spent a little more time holding calvary as he fell asleep. i spent a little more time painting harper's little fingernails and held her a little longer while we read a story. this is probably my favorite time in my entire life and i am afraid that nothing else will be able to compare to this and they are quickly growing and i am quickly losing this time! yep, i love them. every single one.