a new year and i am already behind...

at some point i will write about all the great things that happened in december. so much happened and sometimes when so much happens i have a difficult time trying to give just enough attention to everything...sigh.
so, although i know that i am already behind on much, i decided that i would rather risk being behind than not posting my hopes for 2011.
i am not normally big on resolutions. i am not anti-resolution; i just never took the time to make any. however this year i have three things that i really want to make happen.
1. the first is the most frivolous and that is to lose 20lbs. it just has to happen. i want to be healthy and take care of my body so that i can be around for a long, long time. i also want to not gradually continue to gain weight for the rest of my life and always continually out grow wardrobes. that sounds expensive.
2. the second is to keep my house clean. i have never been an organized person and somewhere between child number 2, 3, and 4 i have lost the ability to maintain my home and be a mother. this year i want to make sure i find the balance between making a home and becoming obsessed with my home. my children will always be more important than my home, but i want to make sure their home is one where they are comfortable and happy.
3. the last is the most important to me. i want 2011 to be a year where i become more engaged with my children. 2010 was a year that i became overwhelmed with the maintenance of babies. feeding, clothing, bathing, driving, and all the other miscellaneous tasks involved with baby care made it difficult to be the mother that i always was before. now that finley is getting older (*tear, tear*) i am finding that i have more time to do the things we were finding difficult to do in the past months. i want to take advantage of those moments. harper is growing faster than i would like to acknowledge and soon the windows of moments that she would like to spend with me are going to get shorter or involve money :). i am already becoming old news to her and it is becoming increasingly important to develop that relationship into the coming years.

i feel like the goals i have set for myself are not unattainable and for that reason i hope that i do not let myself down in not satisfying them. if i do fail at one, i pray it is not number 3...but here's to 2011 and all of the joy and promise that i know it holds!